THE LEAVES OF YOUTH— A new collection of original poems.

Lifelong artist and writer Ara Hagopian has selected 100 of his best poems from the pages of his youth—the “leaves” of loose handwritten papers he kept hidden in an old briefcase for over thirty years. See the fascinating arc of ideas that sprang from age 13 to 50, as the highs and lows of a socially-active teenager grew into youthful longings and ultimately, the wisdom of adulthood.

  • Genre: Original poetry, with several presented as historical stories.
  • Length: 100 poems, 30k words, 277 pages.
  • Format: Softcover, 5.5″ x 8.5″.
  • Price: $15.95 with free domestic shipping (MA sales tax where applicable). International price is $20.95 delivered.
  • Signed and inscribed as you wish.

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THE LEAVES OF YOUTH by Ara Hagopian.

THE LEAVES OF YOUTH by Ara Hagopian.

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Hello readers, Ara here. Four days prior to publication, I came across this old letter from the Wakefield Superintendent of Schools. Note that Dr. Maio made three references to my poetry. When I asked for his recommendation, I must have given him the three poems I’d written through 1982. This letter is reproduced in the book, with permission.


Also by Ara Hagopian:

THE FIERY WINDS a novelette (2015)





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The Incredible Mellie!


In January I posted the story HER PAINTED ROOM, where my cat Mellie was diagnosed with adenocarcinoma, and aggressive form of cancer. She was given a 2-6 month window, with June being her last month of expected life. I’m happy to report we are in the middle of July, and Mellie is still patrolling the house like the vital being she is.

Yesterday Mellie had another mass removed. We’d felt it growing the past month and consulted with her doctor. Mellie had been acting healthy with no restrictions the entire year. Was this lump the sign of the end?

The bad news: Mellie, in all probability, still has cancer. When her January lump was removed, a small bit of the mass was present in the muscle and our veterinarian didn’t want to cut into that.

When the second lump was detected, we had to make a choice. An operation is a $1200 decision for an animal at the supposed end of her life. If the answer was “yes, proceed with the operation,” then tests would have to be taken to see if there was evidence of spread in her body.

If there was spread, then there would be no operation, and we’d be looking at 2-3 weeks before we’d have to put her down. That was the reality our family faced last week, and it was more difficult considering we’d put down our dear 17-year-old cat Jadey last month.

Mellie passed her X-Ray, ultrasound, and blood tests—nothing was detected. She came home last night and is recovering well. She climbs, hobbles and runs as best she can. And she rests. Her body needs this time to get her wound healed so she can be at full speed again.

How long does Mellie have? If you ask her, it’s forever. For us, we know she’s playing with house money. Every day after June 2016 is a day she wasn’t expected to see.

She loves her life. She is tiny, soft, very healthy-looking and always happy for company, strangers and friends alike. She loves having her face touched, and never tires of human play and companionship. She is fortunate to have many people praying for her and wishing her the best. Beating the odds—that’s the incredible story of Mellie.


Recovering from the day's surgery.

Recovering from the day’s surgery.

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We’re nearly one week on from our loss, and our thoughts are filled with Jadey. There will be a time for culling the best photos together, and finding the movies we made. For now, we’re dealing with the shock and sadness of our cat’s death.

Good friends have helped us through these days, and for that we offer our dearest thanks. Dog owners, cat owners, and non-owners have written or stopped by to help ease our feelings.

One dog owner put it in perspective: 16.75 years is a fine life. Dog owners know their pet’s expectancy is a few years less than that. Our family was fortunate to have our beloved cat Jadey so long.

What has this week been like? There hasn’t been a day without tears–these are terrible moments when we feel sorry for her pain, and sorry for her last weeks of difficulty eating.

We’ve had lots of happy remembrances as well. Jadey got her mouse, twice, early that morning. She was in her glory, fully-functioning, and it makes us smile. There are scores of other great remembrances, and we will reflect on them all, in time.

A few days ago her ashes were prepared in a small black urn. I brought Jadey’s remains home via the route she would have taken back from the vet if she had checked out okay that day. So her and my drive home was bittersweet, my hand on the urn package the entire ten mile ride. Jadey was home again.

There have been a few odd household instances worth noting. The night of her death we had a short power outage that we weren’t aware of. Only when we noticed all the clocks flashing 12:00 did we determine the power must have been interrupted. The next day the basement door pushed open while I was doing laundry. Usually this was the result of a curious cat on the other side. The space was empty–and there was no breeze. We’ve found a few objects in very odd places, and her favorite bed, the last place she layed in the house, was quite warm three days later.

Today another odd sight made us smile and think of Jadey. At our front door, a small paw-print of light was formed on the rug from the prism effect of the door’s glass. It made perfect sense, although we’ve never seen this manifestation in the 15 years we’ve lived in this house.

One week on, we’ve kept Jadey’s spirit alive by talking about all the things we loved about our dear companion. The shock of her sudden death hurts us very much. We take comfort in supportive friends and in dear memories.


Jadey is with us in spirit.

Jadey is with us in spirit.

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Goodbye to a Friend

Yesterday was a very sad day; we had to put our middle cat down. Jadey was almost 17 years old, and very healthy for most of her life. We weren’t planning anything of the sort, but her lower jaw had been giving her some trouble the past month and we brought her in for a follow up vet visit. Some aggressive tumors had grown in the two weeks’ time since the doctor had seen her last. Jadey was in pain and was having difficulty eating. The tumors were inoperable and growing fast. It was time for her to go.

Jadey was one of those pets you could call “the best cat ever”. She was a rescue cat, meaning she was up for adoption at a pet store. We don’t know much about her history. She was let out of a moving car somewhere in the Springfield MA area. She was pregnant. Some nice people brought her to a shelter where her kittens were delivered. Jadey was nearly a kitten herself, being a one-year old mom.

My wife and I were volunteers are the pet store’s cat shelter. When Jadey was brought in, we placed her kittens in homes and took her for ourselves. This was in the year 2000.

Jadey gave us a magnificent 16 years. She was an expert mouser, her last victory coming on the day she died. More on that adventure in a bit. First I want to tell you about the kind of friend she was. Because that’s what she was, a friend.

Jadey was “my cat”, meaning she bonded most closely with me. Cats sometimes pick one person for this unique relationship and I was hers. She gave me special handling privileges, prolonged eye contact and a basic vocabulary.

I could pick Jadey up on my slightest whim. Does that sound trivial? Have you ever tried to hold an uncooperative cat? Jadey did not like people holding her. She and I had an agreement; I could carry her anytime I wished, and she would delight in it, for as long as I wanted.

We had our way of holding; always on her right side, with her front paws hanging over my right wrist and my left arm cradling her horizontally. I have never held another cat like this and wouldn’t want to try. It doesn’t seem natural but with us it was very much so.

Another part of handling privileges were the mock fights we’d have. We would have wonderful battles, my hand vs. the laying calico. Inevitably, she would be on her back and I would place my hand directly over her face, grabbing it with all four fingers and thumb, gently shaking her head. She would firmly hold my forearm with both paws until I let go. Purring, all the while.

Jadey caught a mouse at 1:30 AM, the morning of her last day. She brought the live creature to us in our bedroom, and called out repeatedly for us to turn on the lights to see. She was so very proud to have brought her conquest to us! After some frantic and hilarious moments we took the unharmed mouse to a field where it would live another day. Jadey went back to bed, a very satisfied girl. The old lady still had it, till the end.

Let me tell you how she talked. Her vocabulary was such that she had phrasing for “no”, “hello”, “oh hi”, and “that feels very nice”. She knew when and what to say to us, and knew what we meant when we spoke to her, as well.

Our family has lost one of its own and we are terribly sad. There is so much to feel badly about, it’s nearly overwhelming. We were all in this together, all five of us, three cats and two people. We were a unit.

We have plans to move to South Carolina one day. It hurts to think Jadey won’t be a part of that. I’m sad that an animal trusted me, unquestioning on every decision, right through the very, very, very end.

It’s sad to look at her favorite spots in the house, knowing they have reverted to inorganic function. The big Scrabble box in the closet, where she used to isolate herself for sleep fests under the hanging suits. The overhead cabinet in the kitchen, where she would jump if there was the slightest bit of free space next to the cereal boxes. It’s all cold storage now.

Jadey was a friend. The last words she heard were “It’s okay,” repeated over and over until she was still. Because her two owners were with her, and dire times are obliterated when loved ones are together. We held her face and body as she passed.

I wonder, where is this being now? Where’s the buddy who was with us through household moves, all the snowfalls and heatwaves? Where is that thing, that gentle soul?

I believe she’s in a greater place, and she knows everything now. She knows her parents. She knows the disease that took her. She sees us. She understands.

Her family will be hurting for a long time. It’s part of what makes a family work. I can tell you, the loss is a big blow to a unit that functioned, lived and loved for so long. We will keep going, because that was what she knew. Jadey was taken away, but not removed.


Jadey, Spring 2004.

Jadey, Spring 2004.

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Memorial Day (part one)

MEMORIAL DAY (part one)

The Literate Show commemorates a special American holiday with the first of several posts over the long weekend. Memorial Day is not about selling cars or mattresses. It’s not about cookouts or boisterous advertisements, nor is it the “start of summer”. It’s not even the day to thank a veteran for their service. Not on Memorial Day.

Memorial Day is our time to honor the United States servicemen and women who died in active service.

Those of us who live in the USA owe our freedom to countrymen who fought and were killed in foreign lands, skies and oceans. Who fought on our own lands, too. They died young, midlife and old.

They died not knowing you. They died, wanting to live. They did not want to fight a day longer than they had too, but for each, a war was their end.

The proverbial kiss in Times Square never seeped into their senses. They didn’t feel the thrill of rushing off a train to be forever united with their hometown sweetheart. They didn’t get to say the words “It’s over and I can go home.”

They didn’t have the opportunity to feel the pride of shaking the hand of a former enemy who had built his life back up again, in the free world.

Our men and women died for us. This weekend, we honor them.




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Memorial Day (part two)

MEMORIAL DAY (part two)

The Literate Show’s second Memorial Day installment covers the men of Torpedo Squadron Eight, who flew from the USS Hornet to attack the Japanese, poised to invade Midway Atoll, June 4th, 1942. While making their slow attack approach, the American squadron of 15 planes was obliterated within minutes, shot down by Zero fighters and anti-aircraft fire. Of the 30 men of Torpedo Squadron Eight, 29 perished, with a sole survivor, Ensign George Gay.

Torpedo Squadron Eight (known as VT-8) were led by Commander John Waldron, an intuitive and gutsy man of 42 years of age. Waldron, who was married with two children, defied Admiral Marc Mitscher’s orders and navigated on a hunch to find the elusive Japanese fleet. Alone at the battle scene, VT-8 had no fighter cover; the USS Hornet’s fighters had followed another route that led them away from the Japanese.

VT-8 was wiped out due to several reasons. The squadron had never flown in battle. Their torpedoes were unreliable and had to be launched “low and slow”. There were no protective US fighter planes present. The entire Japanese force was focused on destroying the slow-flying American planes—there were no other attackers. Compounding the problem was the fact that the aircraft the men were flying were obsolete and overdue for replacement.

The sole survivor, Ensign Gay, was shot down with his squadron and remained in the water for twenty-four hours. Gay lost an average of a pound of body weight per hour. He survived the war.

VT-8’s efforts did not result in any hits or damage, but the Japanese forces had become scattered, and focused on low-altitude attacks. For the Japanese, death was to come from high above. Within an hour after Waldron’s men had perished, several United States dive bomber groups attacked and sunk three aircraft carriers in rapid succession. The 29 fated men of VT-8 did not die in vain.



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Memorial Day (part three)

MEMORIAL DAY (part three)

What follows is the 3rd installment of The Literate Show’s Memorial Day weekend.

Memorial Day is specific to one day. Truth be told, many Americans think of our war dead every single day of the year.

We think about the nineteen-year-olds who were killed without having kissed a girl. They didn’t get the opportunity. They were going to do it one day. They imagined the dance hall or floral path where the thrill of first love would begin. It was going to be warm and peaceful and perfect.

Like how it was for me and you.

We think about the twenty-five-year-olds who died before they could develop a career. They had plans, never to unfold.

Someone had a tune in their head that died with them. A novel that went unwritten. A dream to see their kid talk, graduate, marry.

There’s an empty bedroom that mother has left untouched, long after the telegram arrived and the pastor left. The son or daughter’s potential is preserved in that room. We mourn because every bit of preparation for that child has now gone to waste. The grade school lessons, staying after class, passing down of family recipes, and the quiet wisdom shared between mother and daughter are all lost as casualties of war.

Most of us did not know the dead personally. So why do we, as strangers, anguish? We feel sadness because we’ve kissed dates and written novels and worked our careers. We wrote Stardust and sung it and we’ve fallen in love slow-dancing to it. We’ve enjoyed the long natural wavelength of life, which is measured from very young to very old.

Someone else had to scan the sky. They froze, burned, drowned, starved, shattered and bled out. Our hearts hurt for all the satisfaction denied them. Because we’ve indulged, and squandered, our good fortunes over and over.

Our Memorial Day dead were serving to defeat tyranny. We live in freedom only through their fight! Their lost opportunities weigh heavily on us. This is why we honor their memory.


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